~bruno mars-talking to the moon~

Awak..saya rasa sedih..saya terlampau rindukan awak..saya sentiasa teringatkan awak..hmm..harap awak pun begitu juga..tidak melupakan saya terus..

-Bruno Mars-Talking To The Moon-

I know you're somewhere out there

Somewhere far away

I want you back

I want you back

My neighbours think 

I'm crazy 

But they don't understand

You're all I had

You're all I had

At night when the stars

Light up my room

I sit by myself

Talking to the moon 

Trying to get to you

In hopes you're on 

The other side

Talking to me too

Or Am I a fool 

Who sits alone

Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like

I'm famous

The talk of the town

They say

I've gone mad

Yeah

But they don't know

What I know

Cause when the

Sun goes down

Someone's talking back

Yeah

They're talking back

Ohhh

At night when the stars

Light up my roon

I sit by myself

Talking to the moon

Trying to get to you

In hopes you're on 

The other side

Talking to me too

Or Am I a fool

Who sits alone

Talking to the moon?

Ahh..Ahh...Ahh

Do you ever hear me calling

(Ahh..Ahh..Ahh..)

Ho hou ho ho hou

Cause every night

I'm talking to the moon

Still trying to get to you

In hopes you're on

The other side

Talking to me too

Or Am I a fool

Who sits alone 

Talking to the moon?

Ohooo...

I know you're somewhere out there

Somewhere far away

spontaneous thursday #8

REMEMBER BY CRISTHINA ROSSETTI

Remember me when I am gone away,

Gone far away into the silent land:

When you can no more hold me by the hand, 

Nor I half turn to go, yet turning stay.

Remember me when no more day by day

You tell me of our future that you plann'd:

Only remember me; you understand

It will be late to counsel then or pray.

Yet if you should forget me for a while

And afterwards remember, do not grieve:

For if the darkness and corruption leave

A vestige of thoughts that once I had,

Better by far you should forget and smile

Then that you should remember and be sad.

sumber

~move on~

"Even though you may want to move forward in your life, you may have one foot on the brakes. In order to be free, we must learn how to let go. Release the hurt. Release the fear. Refuse to entertain your old pain. The energy it takes to hang onto the past is holding you back from a new life. What is it you would let go of today?"

-Mary Manin Morrissey-

Sudah berbulan lamanya, tapi aku masih tersadai di sini..Bagai sudah dirantai erat, kaku tidak mampu bergerak..Saban hari, aku menangisi apa yang telah terjadi..Rasa kesal tak terbendung..Diri sendiri menjadi mangsa, seringkali aku salahkan..

Tatkala kewarasan minda mengatasi keegoan emosi..Aku sedar yang selama ini aku bersikap bodoh..Membiarkan emosi menguasai diri terlampau leka merungkai persoalan kenapa..Aku bukan insan lemah..Aku perlu bangkit membebaskan diri daripada belenggu ini..

Ya Allah..Berikan ketenangan kepada hambamu ini..Berikan diri ini ketabahan untuk menghadapi dugaan ini..Berikanku kekuatan untuk mencari jati diriku..

p/s: trying to move on

~freedom~

Umur dah 2+ tahun tapi masih lagi kena control macam budak kecil...Itu tak boleh, ini tak boleh..Semua benda nak control from my everyday routine till the way I spend my money...Nak spend time with my girlfriend pun susah..My life is to dull and bored..Balik kerja then terperuk ja kat rumah..I really hate it when I got leave for more than one day..I prefer working rather than being at home..Rimas..Lemas..Suffocated..

'Mentang-mentang dah besar, makin besar kepala nampak'

Bukan la nak besar kepala..Yeah I admit it that I'm behaving like a rebellious kid for these few days..But the thing is..me, myself..need my own space..I want to live my own life as the way I want..I don't want to be controlled by anyone..I just want to be me..Don't treat me like a kid..I'm big enough to take care of myself..Please understand me..I just need a freedom..

p/s: am I a psycho?

~pungguk mengharap bulan~

Kalau padi, katakan padi,
Tidak beta, tertampi-tampi;
Kalau jadi, katakan jadi,
Tidak beta, ternanti-nanti

Tuan hamba menyebabkan beta menjadi murka,

Sudah la berbuat salah, memohon maaf pun tuan hamba tidak..

Beta pula yang tuan hamba salahkan..

p/s: termenung melihat langit malam..

~words and promises~

I'm the type of girl who took every words you said as a promise..So do as you said and stop disappointing me..

Am I expecting too much??

~makan hati berulam jantung~

Orang melayu naik perahu,

Sedang berdayung hujan gerimis;

Hancur hatiku abang tak tahu,

Mulut tertawa hati menangis

~kesibukan~

Walau sesibuk mana pun seorang perempuan itu, dia tidak akan pernah melupakan orang yang disayanginya dan akan cuba sedaya upaya, mencuri ruang masa untuk berhubung, asalkan orang yang disayanginya itu tahu yang dia tidak pernah melupakan..

Sebaliknya, sesibuk mana pun seorang lelaki itu, dia tidak pernah cuba mencari ruang masa untuk berhubung bagi menyatakan yang dia tidak pernah melupakan..Dia lebih gemar membuat orang yang disayanginya berteka teki dan membuat andaian sendiri..

Aku seorang perempuan..Aku perlukan penjelasan..Andai kesibukan merupakan penghalang untuk kamu menghubungiku sila jelaskan kepadaku dengan sebaiknya..Agar aku boleh cuba untuk memahami keadaan kamu..Agar aku tidak berteka-teki..Agar prasangka antara kita tidak wujud..Sebaliknya, kamu lebih gemar berdiam diri...Jangan salahkanku kiranya rajukku ini berpangjangan..

day without you #2

Today

The tear keeps pouring..
Reflecting the sorrowfulness inside mine..
But..
I'm still hoping..
Hoping for you..
Hoping for our love..
Baby..
Come back please...

day without you #1

Yesterday..

I've been starring at my cell phone for the whole day, 

Hoping for your call and sms..

I've been so excited every time my cell phone rang, 

I thought that it might be you,

But it's not..

The whole day I've been wondering about you, 

What you doing, how was your day and is it true that your gonna be ok today as you said yesterday, 

But you're not...

I realized my harsh word hurting you, 

I'm lowering my guard, my pride, begging for your apology,

But you're not.. 

Your silence keep hurting me..

Is it a break up that you want???

I took your silence as a yes..

You got want you want....

You leave me wondering in this sorrowful night...

Crying alone the whole night..

Sleeping with tears..